*****please excuse story. *****
i originally intended to do the song "pure morning" by placebo
. that song is special to me because placebo was a surprise group that my husband and i both like, and that was the first song of them that i heard, and it's very funny that i love it (and the group) cos normally i am such a major prude. and one of the few things we have a hard time to agree on is music, so it has been a project of some years of marriage to find music we both like. well, when he wants to be extra nice, he puts on either the placebo
station or the leonard cohen
station on the internet radio (^_^)
ok so this song came on the placebo station (but it's one of those stations that plays other similar music, too) and
i am not even sure right now whom it's by (see comments)
. but anyway i liked the sound and the beat and some of the words... but when i googled the rest of the lyrics i thought "huh, that is probably not about what i thought it was about." anyway i still like this one line and i guess part of the chorus:i'm not a bad man, i'm just overwhelmed
andbecause of these things, because of these things
not being, actually, a man, i changed it a little. it still goes with the beat if you say it right.
thing is, i was out of commission this week from sinus stuff that turned into laryngitis and i can't sing even worse than i usually can't sing. usually sounds come out, even if they don't match the music. BUT having a sick day is good for last-minute crafts. except i had to do something i was totally not allergic to.
anyway. enough words for now; here is the thing i made:
it's probably not even true. i actually fairly suck at being a responsible adult.
BUT "feelings of self-inadequacy" are not all that useful.
and while the craft itself was an escapism, which is my #1 category of preferred activities,
it could be used to hold reminders to actually do something or at least pray about some of the THINGS that i am OVERWHELMED by (shown in the orange silhouette):- economy, dh's job search, trying not to waste money
- war and other violences out there
- the environment and trying to screw it up less
- our house (which actually IS shaped like pizza hut) and home
- dh's immigration process (ie: getting to actually keep my husband, which is kind of important) hangs over our heads until he will be a citizen
- that we, and even our cats, will be ok and get along
- all the sort of "getting along with fellow human beings" sort of issues, with family and with colleagues and teaching and sort of the whole wish that there would be more "ALL US TOGETHER" and not so much "US vs. THEM" in the world.
oh my "process" was that i vaguely drew everything backwards on cardstock paper and then i cut it out with my favorite padded scissors from the chinese supermarket, and some embroidery scissors. so... semi-freehand. i am not showing the backs of the letters cos on that dark purple it's hard to see ballpoint pen. but maybe you get the idea... also then i glued it together using gel medium cos i couldn't find the real paper glue (this is a testament to the sad state of my craft room!) but i plan to varnish over it with modge podge and maybe spray varnish or something to make it more permanent. i thought it would photo better pre-varnish, though (that and the whole allergy thing).
example of sketching on the back:
the only kind of hard parts were where i forgot to reverse the letters properly (once, with the J, that got fixed and once with an S that i only just saw...
) or forgot what letter i was making (one O that i momentarily thought was a C and one H that died).
that and my embroidery scissors are NOT padded.
well at this point i am just relieved to have actually MADE something. i don't expect any votes cos i saw all the amazing other projects that were submitted earlier and seriously will have a hard time picking just one when i vote.
thanks for looking!!