Okay, so I must confess I have a life outside of craftster (some birthday celebrations, and a monster amount of school work), and low and behold after being away from this thread for 2 days it got so big (ie almost 30 pages bigger) that it took me 2 full days to catch up. Thus said I won't be able to comment on them all (I wish I could but that would mean my final papers would literally never get written), but I owuld like to comment on a few.
First of all to the person who was brave enought to post their own picture. Wow, I wish I was as brave as you are, and you are beautiful, remember to see yourself through his eyes sometimes. Thank you for reminding all of us how beauty isn't just in the eye of the beholder, but also in the beholded.
I am also often very self concious of eating in front of other people (it was so bad in highschool and the begining of university that I often didn't eat). What can I say ignore the other people food is too good to waste it worrying about them.
As for not wanting to work will fellow grads, let's just say given some of the people I know graduated and now work for nuclear plants, not only would I not want to work with them, but I wouldn't want to live in the fall out zone either.
I also wish I could have been a hippie... or maybe I am a bit of a modern one...
I also feel really childish when I don't order alcohol. Sometimes it's just best to really enjoy you're milkshake instead (you know you'll enjoy it more).
For the secret sender who was raped, my heart goes out to you, and I know it's impossible to say anything that can make your situation better. Find a sexual assult centre or a hospital that offers free counciling it will help. And remember silence means NO.
Steps for getting excited about salad: 1 travel to hamilton Ontario, 2 go to the Bean Bar to eat, 3 Order a salad (I say one of each to try them), 4 be very excited (you will never look at salad the same way again), 5 send me a doggy bag cause I am really excited about their salads
I also knit so i don't feel guilty about watching TV (or watching video game play for that matter, or sitting in class oops I'm not supposted to admit to that).
I definetly look at people's grocerie choices.
My voice (and sometimes deminer) also changes around my parents. I wish I could say it would stop but my mom also does the same thing.
The zit popping one could have been mine... (I spend a lot of quality time in front of the mirror for this purpose).
I'm always concerned by closed shower curtains (I often check).
My sister is definetly addicted to diet coke, so don't worry you're not alone.
I am also terrified my ET. I still remember watching it in school one time and beign so relieved when we were allowed to play if we didn't want to watch the ending.
Spaceballs is wonderful... I still want a mog.
About dreaming of biking across the US--go for it, friends of mine biked across Canada this summer and had the time of their lives (only took between 2 and 3 months).
TO the secret sender who wants to drop out of grad school but it's paid for, I understand only sadly I'm paying to do something without meaning.
About thanking teachers, so true. I emailed it to my mom (a teacher) i hope you don't mind.
As for hoping to be as good a mom... i often feel the same way. Just remember to share your secret with your mom (if possible) i'm sure it woudl make her year.
I also have a long distance best friend, and she was always popular making me worry. I understand, I don't have a lto of advice, but hang in there, one day you may be the only one still around for her.
I agree about wanting there to be attention for lesser cancers. They are all jsut as devastating, but it seems like the media can only latch on to one at a time... too bad people's body don't cooperate and get "uncool" cancers.
As for all the secrets about not knowing what/ to do/ who you are/ or how to change the world--i think we need to form a support group...
okay that was a lot, and i'm really sorry for talking to much about myself it doesn't sound bad to relate to secrets until you pile forty plus of them together and then it just seems self absorbed... so i apologise... i didn't mean to co-opt the secrets