If someone did plan suicide the place to go is the emergency room. That card did worry me, too. People in my family have committed suicide and things would have got better if they just asked for help. I think you asked for help so, whoever wrote this please call 911 or go to the emergency room.
I don't see anything to be ashamed of. You have it all organised and it looks like you can work on crafts in there. As long as you have room to work it's great. Now my stuff is out of control and needs organising. I bet your sewing room is just as nice and organised.